(Un)documented: the truth about why I'm afraid to fly
Last week, I boarded a plane for the first time since arriving in the US from Slovakia 15 years ago. Despite having all my papers in order, I couldn’t shake the anxiety of all those years I was unable to leave, and the fear of being deported I have imagined myself on an airplane a lot over the last 15 years – always against my will, flying back to Slovakia, never to come back. Last week, for the first time since 2000, I boarded a plane. For the first time in my life, I was flying alone. My green card was tucked away inside my European Union passport in the overhead bin. No one at the airport asked for either of those documents. Yet, for so much of my life those pieces of paper – or rather absence of one of them – defined who I was. Despite having all my papers in order for the last four years, I had to force myself to fly. The occasion was bittersweet: on one hand, it was a reminder of all those years that I had spent in the US, unable to leave. On the other,...